unconditional

i was walking down the memory lane yesterday,
reliving your love within me
realizing what i lost
reviving the feelings of "unconditional"

you had promised it would be unconditional.. remember?
you had promised me the world ,when i didn't want it.
vowed to love me forever.
i knew deep within you were lying....
our thoughts would always differ

u had said you wanted nothing but love
love that was unconditional and free
why did you shun me then
leave me alone when i wanted you
to hold me tight in your arms
and give me what you called unconditional

how come you called me a slut
when week ago i was a goddess to you
how could you bruise my arm
when months back my headache made you cry

why did you leave your little baby
out in the world of hounds
shut her out of the world she was
where love knew no bounds


now that your gone
your little kid is all alone
she looks for you in her memory lane
searching in vain for what you had termed "unconditional"

.............finito

i look at those happy faces ,
all smiling in blissful mirth.
they love to see me play the fool
my antics make them laugh
i juggle ,and jump, shout and scream
to them i am a funny dream
i am tired yet i dance
my body aches with every stance
i mock myself along with them
disguising my tears of shame
im tired of being me...u know
tired of making them smile
just tired of wearing insults
like id wear my new jacket
it makes me sick in my mind
to see how they leech at me
ogle at my painted nose
laugh at peculiar shoes
they wouldn't look closer u know
i know they are scared to see,
the distortion beneath....
of what they have made me
scared to death they are within
they know very well their sin
a day will come,when the paint will wash off
they'll have to look at the effect of their action
my face distorted,my laughter, then screams
screeching in pain,they'll come down to me
begging mercy
....................for having bleed me to death,robbing me of happiness
so that they could laugh freely ......at my expense
i am expensive u know..................its time i ask my worth..
rob them off what they call happiness.........deprive them of life.