warrior of light (2)

u failed me! courage accused me yet again

yes, i was scared, petrified at my own reflection

at the weakling within......distortions i feared would reveal

the looser in me...........

fathomless in deep pain , my tears new no bounds

my mind disillusioned now

yes, i was afraid , afraid to face ,my reality ,

i had been living a dream , avoiding my own fact

i wanted to flee now , yet a force held me back

not knowing what it was , i tried to defy it...

my will power , and strength , had reached its end

i was loosing my own self ,in self pity

my doom was evident again .................


yet again however the force within tried stopping me

i had never paid heed to the words being chanted in my head

now in solitude i listened

"accept your reality , face it.
fear is not a symbol of weakness
running away is"

my inquisitive mind questioned the chantings

they answered ..................
."the warrior of light must rise.
every time she falls.....
she must try never giving up,
she must keep promise
her teacher's vow
she will win............
she must fight"

dumbstruck in awe of my own strength,

i was grateful ,my angel was right within

i start of afresh another WAR.